confessions of a nature blogger

Confessions

Confessions

In one of my blogging groups, I was challenged to write a confession for my blog, unfortunately there are so many to choose from.

As I sit here thinking about what my confession will be, I can’t help but notice that I have a lot of problems, and could confess each day for the rest of my life, but I will pick the deepest and most personal I can think of.

First of all, I don’t like being vulnerable, I don’t like putting myself out there for people to actually see because I lack confidence in myself and can break down from one persons criticism, although I do have to say I’m getting better at this as I’m getting older. I have put myself out there before and had my “head chopped off”, (has anyone read the book Through The Looking Glass: Awakening Your Inner Alice” by Sunni Chapman? She talks about the Red Queen with the big head, symbolic of our ego, who is always saying “off with their heads” because these people don’t agree with her, and she needs to kill anyone who defies or disagrees with her) sorry, back to what I was saying, I’ve had my head chopped off by many people all through my life, so I am timid when it comes to sharing a piece of myself.

My problems

My problems

So when it comes to my nature blog, I have to confess that I don’t have the best green-thumb on the planet. I haven’t taken what I’ve learned and put them into practice yet, but I will get there some day. When it comes to gardening, I was taught the old way by my parents, and they were taught the old way by their parents, and so on. The only reason I decided to look into something different, is because I am tired of working so hard in my garden, I knew their had to be a smarter way of growing things, and with all the other commitments I have in life, I can’t spend all day working in my garden pulling the unwanted plants (I’m not going to call them weeds) out.

I also have a problem with work, I don’t mind working, and I don’t mind working hard, but when I work hard and have little to show for it, I begin to question what I am doing, and if there is an easier way of doing it. Here lies my next confession, I don’t allow myself to be creative, I don’t trust myself enough to come up with a solution to my problems, so I go looking for other people’s thoughts and opinions, which is okay for some situations but not okay for others. There will always come a time when you need to look within yourself for your answer to live the unique life that is yours.

I don’t like fake people, people who don’t live their lives and just mimic other people, acting as if they are unique. Why? Because I am one of those people. With age comes wisdom, so as I get older I am getting better at all this, and I have to say that blogging is helping me as well, it helps me to put myself out there a little at a time.

So there you go, my confession(s) of the day, like I said, I could add a whole bunch more but I would have to write a book since there is so much to talk about. Despite everything I know that is wrong with me, I see a beauty in being broken, a beauty that surpasses all other.

Kintsugi:  a Japanese technique for repairing broken pottery with seams of gold.

Kintsugi: a Japanese technique for repairing broken pottery with seams of gold.

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About Mimic Nature

Hello everyone! I’m so glad to see you! I’m Jana, I’m an eccentric wife and mother; I work 2 jobs and homeschool my kids. With all this going on in my life, I want to focus my attention on the things that make me happy, and the one thing that has made me happy ever since I was a little kid is nature. As my life progressed and changed through my teen years and my early married life, I lost my connection to it. Life took over and here I am living disconnected from nature because of work, bills, and every day events that keep me away. So the next chapter of my life will be dedicated, at least in some small part, to reconnecting to nature; I still have a mortgage, work, and a family to take care of, but now, I will be more aware of nature and my place within it. Each day, I will find some small way to not harm nature. Not long ago I was introduced to something called permaculture and I fell in love with it. Basically, it’s building a small ecosystem in your own backyard that is based off of what nature would do naturally. In turn your backyard helps you, and you help your backyard…with minimal work!! At first it may take more work, but over time, your backyard will become self-sustaining and you won’t have to work as hard…other than harvesting. I love the life lessons that I learn from nature, so what I promise to do is share a lesson that I’ve learned from nature each week, share what I’m learning about permaculture, and share my own personal progress in changing my homestead into a permaculture Garden of Eden. And since it’s hard to make any changes in life, I want to have some free giveaways once in awhile…all nature themed of course, to help all of us remember our ‘green’ family. Read a few articles, see if you like what is there, if you do, go ahead and subscribe. If you don’t like what you see, that’s ok, I’m honored that you took the time to get to know me a little and see my vision for my blog and my life.
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3 Responses to confessions of a nature blogger

  1. zestyjazz says:

    Wow. Go ahead you for sharing your confessions. I’m sure it took a lot of guts and oh, vulnerability to get it done! I can relate to you with being vulnerable. I really hate being in a situation where everyone knows something and I don’t. For instance, I don’t know many song writers, actors, famous people, popular games or just “pop culture” stuff at all. I’m also very bad a geography and historical dates. In essence, I’m a huge generalist and rely on my overarching sense of the world than on specific time-sensitive things. Every time I am called out on something i don’t know I get really prickly and mad and defensive…I’m still trying to find different ways to respond. Anywho…thank you for sharing! -Jasmine

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    • Mimic Nature says:

      thank you for sharing as well Jasmine, it’s always nice to see people share their shortcomings rather than boasting about how great they are 🙂 Just so you know, I don’t know much of that “pop culture” stuff either.

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  2. Great post, Jana.
    Confession is good for the soul. And truly helps us understand ourselves by our perspective and not those who don’t live in our skin.
    I was handicapped by polio at age four. When it returned with new weakness in middle age, by a different means, a now accustomed to power chair became necessary.
    I can identify with your thought on brokeness. As I look into my eyes in a mirror, I see no crutches, braces, no abnormalities. I see the I of me and not the image of me. I see the evidence of brokeness, but not one who is beaten.
    As a healed fracture becomes stronger, so we too are stronger for the trials we endure.
    -Alan

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